Being a woman



 I’ve always had a strange uterus. The kind that causes trouble. Got very easily pregnant, it’s was great yes but sometimes a bit worrying. Had Braxton Hicks early on and with every new pregnancy they started earlier and earlier. With our last son they started almost as soon as I got a positive pregnancy test. They might have been the reason I started to leak amniotic fluid at 32 weeks with my second. With my 3rd, 4th and fifth had to take meds for them. Angry uterus I might say. I guess 4 c-sections didn’t help either but that was my hips’ fault 😅 During the last c-section my OB GYN said to us « Madame, your uterus cannot take it anymore, you cannot have anymore babies. ». Ok...well it wasn’t planned anyway that we would. I know that in Finland for exemple they would tie your tubes for that during your c-section but here in France it’s not that easy. I was only 30 years old, they considered it too young so they didn’t even propose to do it. 

My uterus got a little bit more angrier. Four years after my last pregnancy I started to have the weirdest periods ever. They would start normally, last the normal period of time and few days after I would bleed again. It was so annoying. After few months I had enough and had an ultrasound. Ultrasound showed that my inner c-section scar had a “hole” and it hadn’t healed properly and my period blood would stay inside and come out little to little. Great. They wanted to put me on meds. I don’t like to take anything hormonal, they make me « mad ». So after a month I stopped them and decided to live with it. 



July 2018. First day of summer vacation. We went to celebrate to Burger King. I know 😅 All day I had had some pain to my lower stomach. Took some Paracetamol and the pain went away. I had my periods like a week before and the bleeding started again. This time it was very fresh blood (sorry for being so graphic) but it didn’t worry me too much. On the way home while we were walking the pain came back but a lot stronger. Took some Paracetamol again. It didn’t work. Took some meds for abdomen cramps. No help. Warm bath but no help. Good thing my husband was at home this night because he works at night. I told him that something was wrong and it was the best if he took me to the gynecology emergency. 

Good thing that we went. I’m not going to go through the whole night for you. It was a long and horrible night. A night where I almost left this earth. My family. Children. But I was strong. I am strong. 

I was diagnosed with uterine arteriovenous malformation. I had an emergency operation that saved my life after I almost bled to death. Like I told, angry uterus. Six months after I decided it was time to get rid of this angry uterus. It had served its purpose by giving us five beautiful children. I didn’t need it anymore. Best decision ever even if I had some complications afterwards. No more periods. Heaven. 

My daughter got her first period last week. Angry uterus you are not welcome here so be nice to her. 


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